I hope this message finds you in good health.

I feel lost and I think I need help. Please post for me and hide my ID.

I'm in my middle 20's, it's not love related.

I've been a strong believer of prayer my whole life and loved things to do with God (reading the bible and sharing the word with people around) .

Ever since then, my belief that "prayer works", changed. I thought the protection of God was always upon those that fear Him like Psalms 34:7 suggests. I thought I had the protection of God with me til a knife pierced through my flesh. 

Years have gone by, and I still feel like it happened yesterday. I have tried praying about it, was counselled but nothing changed. My mind keeps reliving it up and it makes me feel stressed. Bottom line, I no longer pray, my heart is in pain, things to do with God now irritates me. Sometimes I feel like God does not just exist, like we were just brainwashed to believe in such. 

My mental health is not stable because of it and I wish to die every day.

To the Christians, help me, does prayer also works on mental health?

It's too much for me, I feel lost, I feel all alone. Nothing impresses me no more except the feeling of yearning for death to come.