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There's this lady am in a relationship with. I must confess I really love her .

With the help of a pastor and some elders, we managed to change her mind .. But the problem now is, when my mum said she wouldn't agree for me to marry her, she got mad and said some hurtful words to me, that I nearly even committed suicide.

I can't forgive her even though I still love her. I'm trying to forgive her for the words she said and the things she did becos of my mum, but it still rings inside my head, this thing is really affecting me psychologically and I'm running losses at work ..I don't even know what to do ..